Last week on The Bert Show on TODAY, the “Black-ish” actress talked about her new music, “Ordinary Light,” inspired by her struggles with anxiety and loss. Click here to check it out.
I felt confused and overwhelmed and scared. I felt like what I was doing was about to stop me and I was so invested in pursuing my dreams that I didn’t see it. The older I got the more I just went into a tailspin, trying to figure out ways to be safe, trying to figure out ways to live life in a certain way. I would be in a rush to leave and I would get emotional. Things I would enjoy I started feeling I wasn’t ready for and wanted to get back into quickly, so then I felt depressed. I felt like I could do anything — it was pure selfishness. It was a lot of people around me, seeing everything I was doing, making plans, making friends and I was just kind of showing up empty in front of everyone and that was all I ever cared about.
I think what a lot of people don’t see is the things that scare me or make me sad and I have to overcome those things before I can find that happiness and balance. Sometimes these fears aren’t new and haven’t been getting better, but because it was someone else in my life that I’m trying to do it by myself they’re either just forgotten about or ignored. I think it’s so important for people to try to identify what their fears are or what they’re not equipped to do. It’s okay to try to overcome those fears. I just can’t be all of it by myself.